There really could never be a perfect & exact list of what I want, because what I want changes regularly. But there are a few “wants” that remain the same.
I want someone who holds me so tightly, there is no room for air. Completely enveloping me in their strong arms, wordlessly saying they’d protect me from anything. Having no fear of pulling me close when I’m almost sleeping and whispering something genuine in my ear. Someone that will take my face in their hands and kiss me, and do it right. Constantly aware of my physical needs, and can please me. Someone who could show me new things, and drive me crazy.
I want someone confident and conscious of their good looks, but never cocky. Always adorned in clean and stylish clothing. I wouldnt mind if they preferred the color black, grew a mustache, and had black framed glasses. Someone who is able to take a compliment and smile, yet never letting it go to their head.
I want someone aware of how lucky they are to be with me. I want them to know I am beautiful, and my personality is as well. Someone who will compliment me when it is due, yet never making me feel like I am “too pretty” for them. Someone who will never put me on a pedestal, yet treat me like a queen, but never like a master. Knowing who they are and never allowing me to change them. Someone who would make me earn their devotion, because they know they are worth it. Its important that they are well groomed and hygienic. Taking special care of their teeth and skin, and always always always has a sexy hair style, of course. And smells good, constantly.
I want someone with pristine taste in everything. Music, food, cars, movies, television, clothes. Someone who will show me songs and dishes I’ve never heard of, and encourage me to grow. I want someone who will wake me up in the morning, and make me go on a hike with them. Even though i probably wont want to, in the end I’ll be so glad I did. I need to be enriched constantly. I love random facts, obscure knowledge, and dedication to a hobby; yet never obsessed with it. Someone with passion for a craft of any kind. So passionate they could go on for hours and hours and I’ll listen and become interested.
I want someone with it together. They dont need to have their future all planned, or a million dollars or a perfect car. But they do need to have a job, a goal, a phone, a car, and responsibility. Someone with dreams and ideals that no one could stop them from making reality. Someone self sufficient and would never let me baby them. Wearing the pants, yet never treating me like anything less than equal. I need someone who can tame me, just a little.
I want someone who can engage in casual conversation. Someone able to stand in front of a plain white wall, and some how find something to say to me. Never allowing the silence to be awkward, yet aware of when the silence is necessary. A good sense of humor, a sharp tongue, witty quips and all. An active listener, yet careful to never offend me with their differing opinions. Someone who will remember something I told them weeks ago, and will ask me questions regarding my friends and family life, yet never invading. Someone who will accompany me to an event, and chose appropriate times to disappear into the crowd, leaving me to do my own socializing.
I want someone without addictions. Excluding Cigarettes and sex, of course. Someone who knows their limitations on alcohol, and would rather die before letting me spend a night watching them stumble around and throw up. Is able to know when to stop, and never becomes a burden or a catastrophe talked about later. Someone who would rather have a beer, and sober up and drive, rather than pass out on a dirty couch somewhere. Elegance, class, a bit of a snob, and somehow still very down to earth.
I want someone with a beautiful heart and soul. The boy I’d take home to my parents and never have to worry about what he’d say. Someone with a good family, a strong relationship with their mother, and a healthy perception of love. Always respectful of me, never once referring to me as a “bitch” or anything of the sort. Someone who will be proud of me and share in my success, validating my hard work and time spent. A trustworthy and trusting person, who would flirt with other girls casually, but never in a million years dream of cheating on me. Someone who is truly good, and would do anything for their friends and loved ones. Aware of the current events in the world, and has opinions on them, never claiming ignorance.
I’ll probably fight it and I would most likely almost fuck it up, too. But i hope i would at least get the chance.