Today nik and i did laundry at the laundry-mat. 

It was a nice and relaxing just sitting there watching our clothes spin around after a night like last night.

We had our first and last party at our apartment last night. Things were so great until i woke up with my eyelashes on, a head ache, and the news that someone had thrown beer bottles off the balcony and also on to our landlords front porch.

Devastatingly awkward and humiliating cleaning that up. Ya know, i get the lemons in the garbage disposal, and the crumbs and grit butts, but i do not get the broken beer bottles casually tossed at MY LANDLORD’S door, and also into the alley.

It makes me wonder, who raised all these people i party with? Cause i specifically invited a crowd that i know personally. So, that means one of my “friends” threw those beer bottles. Or someone whom i trusted.

Im hope the hott gossip travels and gets back to me so i can throw some beer bottles at that person’s car or maybe at their door. Give em somethin’ real nice.

A friend of mine, Bri, passed away the other night.

She was someone I partied with in high school, hung out with at school, and sang with in our Commercial And Recording Arts class. She was BANANAS! Such a bright spot. So over the top and glamorous, it was incredible to watch her sing.

She’s gone now, and last night my friend Nick sat outside with me while i bawled my eyes out.  She took her own life, and now all of these people are left to wonder where she is now, and if she is happier.

Her facebook was completely devoid of cryptic postings, except for this.

“Lord these words I beg of you
As I kneel down at my bed
Because soon I will be dead
Let’s face it soon I will be dead
And I just want to 
I want to see the boy happy
With some hope in his pale eyes
Is that too much to ask?
Before I die
I have one final dream
For my own life I don’t care anything”-Morrissey

That was it…..In fact, just the other day she had posted about traveling and how this was about to be her year.

Her last post, ever, before she died was “Y u mad?”

We’re all mad. a lot of us. People she hardly knew are devastated.

The world is dark….