I was scrubbing the stove top last night and it just hit me.

I leaned against the fridge and began to cry.

Why did this happen to holly?

Why is bri gone?

Two weeks ago nik and i were driving and i began to cry.

I really couldnt figure out why, but i just felt this overwhelming sense of loss. I kept telling him “Something awful is going to happen soon, i know it.”
For the last two weeks i’ve made sure to hug him an extra time before he left for work, and call my mom and dad more often.

I feel  like this terrible string of events is not quite over.

Im so worried about everyone now.

I took off all my clothes and got into the shower and just cried last night.

big fat tears of terror and loss and confusion.

Im so confused and sad.