I bought flowers for Holly today.

I walked into the flower shop and picked out a few beautiful flowers i have a feeling she would have liked. I didnt even manage to pay for them without bursting into tears.

The woman behind the counter asked me if i wanted to write a card for the flowers and with shaky hands i wrote out

To Holly, 

We will miss you so much.

You were beautiful and amazing.

I signed the card from my friend Brittany and I. 

Two girls were seating crying by where Holly was killed, and i circled the block a few times until they were gone.

There were a few bouquets already placed there, and two candles.

I got out of my car, sobbing, and with shaky hands i laid down the flowers.

I couldnt even stay for more than a moment.

I wish there was somewhere i could leave Bri flowers. 

Its actually scaring me how much this has effected me lately.

I miss you guys.