So, hey.

Im pretty sure that i am the happiest i have ever been.

Nik is lying in my bed, well, our bed, and my nails are like 10 inches long. Its incredible.

I look at my hands sometimes and im like “maybe ill just get short nails.”

YES, i am so happy that i just drive around and think about my nails.

Bri and Holly’s passing really reminded me that i need to live life in a positive way, and impact more people.

Be more lively and glamorous.

I really want to quit smoking.

I want to record more music.

I want to live.

What does living mean?

 Getting drunk and falling asleep on lawns? or making dinner and being an amazing fiance’, while working hard and enjoying a cocktail here and there?

Im not really sure at this point.

Im in a very positive transitional state.